I feel myself fill from the inside out as I resolve the issues of my past. As I lean and rest into it, I no longer feel like a piece of veneer over a skeleton.
I can feel myself thickening and becoming fulfilled as I’m allowing myself to feel more three dimensional from the inside.
Part of my process used to be employing the art of distraction; kept as busy as I could.
Now I find I’m resting and repairing.
Distraction can be agitating, and…well…distracting. Distracting from what I need to lean into, to sit with, to listen to, and hear with all my senses. The feelings, the lessons, the healing, the becoming of one with myself.
Holidays can be a difficult time for many people. Not everyone is surrounded by the large wonderful families that are superimposed on us in the media. In fact, I don’t really know anyone in my adult life who looks forward to the craziness of the holiday season and having to be in four places at once regardless of their childhoods. For those of us who are healing from trauma, they can be especially trying because of triggers, memories, anniversaries, or just the stress of feeling like we have to be with those who may have hurt us. I like to try and show compassion to myself during this time of year. So I took a moment and thought about what I am pausing to give thanks for at the beginning of the holiday season.