The Juxtaposition

Breathe in
Breathe out
Surrender and release

Illness led me to rest
But I forgot to breathe

Triggers led me to
grounding techniques
But I forgot to exhale

Life situations led me
to worry
take action
then anxiously wait
exhausted, but whole

Wisdom reminded me this will pass
Just Breathe
Just Be

breathed in
breathed out
surrendered and released

The after comes as it always does

I rest confused by the intensity; the crescendo
of symptoms, of noise, and of fear

Fear of the illness
because I know it will strike again
often without warning

It lifts
leaving behind fogginess, relief
fatigue and acceptance

The mindfulness of acceptance
The exhaustion of acceptance

For me, living with PTSD
is the juxtaposition between
illness and health
danger and safety
surrender and release

©Alexis Rose, image source:

Thank you for reading my books:  If I Could Tell You How It Feels,  and  Untangled, A Story of Resilience, Courage, and Triumph

15 thoughts on “The Juxtaposition

  1. Im SO glad you’re back.
    Thank you for you wonderful support. I love that you take time in the morning to breathe. Waiting for this dorky confession? Every morning I wake up and Good Morning world its a brand new day!! I know….I know…what a dork! 😁

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  2. the crescendo
    of symptoms, of noise, and of fear

    Look at your poetry. You go. I am happy your poetry can express your feelngs.
    And you did a lovely job about it.
    I always do breathing exercise in moments of anxiety. It really works for me.

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