Will the Sky Fall?

The sky is a beautiful shade of deep blue.
The puffy white clouds move
at a meditative pace
changing shapes
as they roll overhead.

The waves of the sky.

Gazing at this wondrous expanse
I worry will the sky fall
if I say my truth out loud?

Will the sky fall?

Funny, it didn’t fall
when I journaled the words
and shared it with my confidant.

The sky didn’t fall on me
nor did it fall on her.

I once looked to the sky
for help, for escape.
I watched the clouds
move, and then turn dusty
but it was only the dust in my eyes.

I fell silent.

Today, as I sit with the truth
I know I don’t have to suffer.

I’m no longer completely silent
but sometimes the words get stuck in my throat.
Constricting, and pressing on my lungs.
Making it hard to talk, to speak my truth.

The old tapes press play:
Will the sky fall
if I speak, if I share?

Tentatively trusting
I surf the waves of the sky
just as I surf the waves of emotion.
The waves of life.

The sky is indeed beautiful today
Beautiful, alive, full of awareness and hope.

I know that the sky will not fall!

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Thank you for reading my books: If I Could Tell You How It Feels, and Untangled, A Story of Resilience, Courage, and Triumph    

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34 thoughts on “Will the Sky Fall?

  1. Many things in life are hard or difficult but you must accept it and roll with the punches. Only death and taxes are guaranteed. I’m glad that my brother Stephen is being taken cared for. As I get older I know that certain activities I won’t be able to do anyway. One has to accept reality. Life as it is not the way you want or wish it to be. The only constant in life is change.

    Today I applied to AmeriCorp Teaching program. This is a wonderful opportunity. It will keep me busy and my mind off all the things over which I have no control. My skills line up with what they require so I was excited to fill out the application.

    Be careful what you ask God for because you may get it.

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  2. Thank You!
    Im so sorry to hear that you haven’t had the relief with retirement and I absolutely understand what you are saying.
    It must also be hard on you that haven’t seen Stephen since May.
    Hopefully when you find a job it will be something that is easy and interesting. You worked hard for a long time.
    I have totally had times when I have tried to run away from myself. But Im always there, just a different backdrop or different room. 😊

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  3. Lovely expressive poem. I’m no chicken little but sometimes the sky truly is falling or I’m getting hit by meteorites. The solutions we think are going to solve the problem just present other problems. I thought when I retired all my problems would go away. The first three weeks were great. Then reality set in. The same issues I had before I retired are still there. No change. Have not seen my brother Stephen since May. Hopefully if all goes right I hope to spend time with him this weekend and on Halloween. Free time without resources just means one has more time to think about problems. Retirement did not solve my physical and medical issues nor did it fix my emotional issues. I have begun to apply for other jobs. Hopefully I will be back to work by either November or December. #1 You can’t run away from yourself. .

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  4. Alexis, you are a brave lady.
    BTW I listened to the rather long (!) podcast a few months back. As it was long I thought I’ll just listen to a little, then I became entranced and listened to the whole caboodle! xo

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  5. Congratulations, on finally, overcoming the trials of your life there, and the skie won’t fall, it just feels like it’s, falling hard down on our heads, when we first stumbled upon the truths of ourselves, but after we’d, worked through all the feelings of anger, of betrayal, we will eventually, be okay on our own.

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