Metamorphosis of a Healing Journey

On By Alexis RoseIn Blog, If I Could Tell You How It Feels, PTSD

The topic of transformation, metamorphosis, growth, change, (insert whatever word works for your personal journey) has been front and center for me lately. Most of us want to grow and change.  It’s hard; no one said it was going to be easy. But rarely do people talk about the absolute pain one feels when emotional wounds get ripped open in order to process, heal and grow.

It’s a lonely journey because no one else can go inside of you and heal those wounds or take away the rawness.

You have to be the one to do it.

However, it certainly doesn’t have to be an “alone” journey. We can find therapists, support groups, friends, family, books, even blogs so we are surrounded by the support we need. In fact, I think it’s imperative to find people who absolutely “get it” and can relate with empathy when we are in the process of transforming, and becoming the person we want to be.

It doesn’t have to be a shattered past that motivates a person to grow and change. Growth and change are important to do for the rest of our lives. Some people may find themselves in a spiritual crossroads, others may find themselves feeling empty after dedicating years to a career, and some people are simply unable to feel content, knowing that there is some road not yet taken that is calling for them to explore. Whatever the motivation, the transformation to a new way of being from the inside out is painful and sometimes scary.

I have said to a few people, that I believe if we could interview a caterpillar as they transform into a butterfly and ask them, how it feels, they would tell us it is excruciatingly painful. They are completely changing from the inside out. The end result is beautiful; Butterflies are beautiful!

I know what I had to do in order to heal the wounds of my past. I knew what I wanted my internal life to look like, and I made a commitment to myself that I was going to do it. I wasn’t prepared for the loneliness of the journey, but that’s okay with me. I understand it, and I want to talk about it. No one can fix it, it’s part of the deal.

When I feel that pain of loneliness, I remembered why I chose to dig up the past, process what happened, understand my PTSD, find others who are also on a healing journey, and remind myself, the metamorphosis of a personal legend begins when you accept who you were, who you are now, and who you will be.

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©Alexis Rose, photo: Shelley Bauer

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18 thoughts on “Metamorphosis of a Healing Journey”

  4. What better words to share than words filled with wisdom, gained from the back of experience. Excellent share! Thanks for your frequent quiet visits, always encouraging me with a ‘like’. Reblogged on Create Space

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  11. I think the sentence, “You have to be the one to do it.” is exceedingly profound. In my experience, it wasn’t until I made a commitment to myself to leave the past behind, with its baggage, that I moved forward.

    We’re on a journey. We are always uncovering things within, renewing, and tossing out what doesn’t serve us. The only choice we have if we don’t is to remain stuck in the mire of what once was.

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  14. It is so scary isn’t it! For me writing was a catalyst for continued healing, and still there are days when It feels like a herd of elephants in my stomach and chest as I press the publish button. Write what feels healing for you. Im always so grateful when I hear that someone can relate to what Im saying. It can feel so lonely sometimes. Always do what feels right for you in your own time. ❤️

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  15. Thank you so much for your wonderful feedback. I am struck by the pain of change whether its trauma related or not. Those feelings of uncertainty and letting go can feel so daunting sometimes. Thank you for reading this and continuing the conversation. It helps to walk with others on our invisible journey. Keep healing!

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  17. I do agree so much with your words. I’m struggling always with the fear of my past and how to take on the task of opening up by mouth or in print so I can emerge on the other side to who I want to be.

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  18. Love what you said about the butterfly. I don’t think anyone ever truly expects how painful and arduous the healing process could be. I mean it’s called healing, isn’t it? That sounds so positive. But there are many steps to take, that happen inside the chrysalis, away from the eyes of others. For me, those can the most painful. It can be hard to endure it alone, my journey invisible to others. This post really resonated with me, thank you for writing it! I wish you continued strength on your own journey.

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