So much emotion!
I feel thankful, I feel happy, I feel stunned.
I feel tired, I feel confused, I feel scared and sometimes terrified.
I feel a sense of peace and connectedness to the world around me.
I feel hope, I feel calm.
I’m full of anxiety, fear, doubt, restlessness.
I am up, I am down, I am happy and I am sad. I feel fear, I am content.
I feel so many emotions that sometimes I’m not sure how to deal with any of them. So instead of trying to deal with them, I’m learning to let each one pass through me as they come.
Emotions; We all have them, and they come and go like waves. Some of them are little sets of gentle ripples and some are as intense as a tsunami. Waves come and waves go, each breaking on the shore and each is time limited.
I have learned to sit with the emotion, to understand that even the most intense feelings will soon ebb. Even though it feels like it, my emotions won’t take up all the space in my body, mind, and soul. There is even room to feel more than one thing…sometimes that’s such a paradox!
When I feel them begin to rise, I try for control. I want to balance perfectly and ride them to the shore with ease. That’s not life, even the most eloquent and prophetic surfer wipes out. It’s okay, another set of emotional waves will come soon enough. Sometimes gentle, sometimes stormy, sometimes hardly noticing the fleeting feelings. That’s normal, natural, human nature.
I feel grateful.
Thank you for reading my memoir, Untangled, A Story of Resilience, Courage, and Triumph