Spirit Mirror

I stand in front of a mirror. Not the kind of mirror that reflects your outside self, it is the kind of mirror that reflects your psyche. It’s the kind of mirror that reflects how you think, emote, or not emote, and feel. It is the kind of mirror that reflects back the years of psychological and emotional damage. I call it my spirit mirror.

It took a lot of courage to approach this mirror the first time.  I was terrified because I knew that if I tried to stand in front of this mirror before,  I wouldn’t have seen any reflection. I felt like a nobody with no-body. But something compelled me to look at the effects of the trauma and how it damaged my mind, and spirit and left my soul in tattered ruin.

Countless times, I could only stand looking into that mirror for mere seconds before running away in shame. But I was determined to keep going back. Each time I went back,  I began to have the courage to view my reflection and started to name what I saw. Even though it was difficult to see myself, I’m glad I was brave enough to stand in front of that mirror and look deeper into my spirit.

At first, all I could name was the lies that were told to my soul. The lies that perpetrators tell their victims to legitimize what they are doing or have done. At that time, all I could see was the hurt, pain, fear, and wretchedness of the first twenty years of my life.

Then to my amazement, as I stood steadfast in front of my spirit mirror, I began to see a light emerge from my core. My reflection of who I am, who I wanted to be and what they couldn’t take from me, started emitting a stronger and stronger beacon of hope. At first, it was hard to trust the truth of the mirror. I could have turned away, and continued to believe the lies, or I could believe my truth, and trust my reflection.

There are still times when I stand in front of that self-mirror and find myself seeing a reflection of who I was before I began my healing journey. The difference is now I have the courage to stand there, to refuse to look away in shame and wait for my inner light to shine through, giving me hope that I have the courage to face each day, to stay the course, to heal.

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21 thoughts on “Spirit Mirror

  1. atribeuntangled May 1, 2016 / 3:37 am

    Thank You! Im happy to meet you. I am visiting your site as well. Just was looking at the beautiful soul rose. Alexis

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  2. Soul Gifts May 1, 2016 / 3:29 am

    What a courageous thing to do – and I love the term Spirit Mirror. So apt and so descriptive. I came over from Jacquie’s party to say hello – wish you well 🙂

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  3. atribeuntangled April 30, 2016 / 11:09 pm

    and you as well! I’m glad we are following each other now. Thanks to our friend Jackie for connecting the two of us.

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  4. atribeuntangled April 30, 2016 / 11:07 pm

    Thank You Michelle, I really appreciate you reading and your feedback. Have a great evening. Alexis

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  5. Michelle Malone April 30, 2016 / 11:04 pm

    Great piece, and I love the title. Scraping away layers of lies is difficult but necessary if we are to heal. Best wishes!

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  6. Ann E. Laurie April 30, 2016 / 5:24 am

    Beautiful.

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  7. Tamara Kulish April 29, 2016 / 3:07 pm

    Reblogged this on On Becoming a Lemonade Maker and commented:
    I real love this notion of a spirit mirror! It’s so true isn’t it that When we first start out on our healing journey we see ourselves so negatively? I can relate to that!

    Now, after years of hard inner work, I’m happy and pleased to say that my inner tapes have been completely changed!

    This is doable for everyone! Each person’s timeline is different and comparing our progress to someone else’s is pointless!

    Keep focused on your journey and only compare yourself to who you were a year ago, two years ago, etc.!

    Peace to all!!
    Tamara

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  8. atribeuntangled April 29, 2016 / 3:04 pm

    Thank You Tamara! You feedback always makes me smile 🙂 Alexis

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  9. Tamara Kulish April 29, 2016 / 3:01 pm

    Love this! The spirit mirror! Kudos!

    Peace,
    Tamara

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