Someday…

Someday, I will again be able to go to the library spending hours rejoicing in all the colors and the choices it has to offer.

Someday, I will again be able to go to the grocery store, or any store for that matter and not get overwhelmed by the choices. 

Someday, I will be again able to drive on long meandering road trips and not get overwhelmed by the cars and the quickness and speed that everything happens on the road.

Someday, I will again be able to enjoy the sound of fireworks without having it trigger a flashback.

Someday, I will again be able to take a deep breath and not be scared of the everyday noise of the world.

Someday, I will feel safe…I am safe, but I will also feel safe.

Someday…but not today. Today I am still easily triggered by my PTSD symptoms. It’s that time of year…it happens, it’s part of coming to terms with my past and dealing with the effects of my trauma.

But Someday, I know, it will be different!

©Alexis Rose

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28 thoughts on “Someday…

  1. I know a little about having post stress. I’m a highly anxious, nervous person. Those qualities exaggerated by a traumatic brain injury. Although it was 15 years ago, I am still fearful and anxious on a daily basis. But I do live my life and go places. I work and play. But I do get overwhelmed most everyday and quite scared often. I wish you the best.

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  2. Jacqueline Zeigler

    Yes, each person’s triggers are different. The worst ones are those I haven’t experienced before. They come out of the blue, often at a time or place or picture which triggers a reaction. You know it’s real, but then you connect it to something even deeper that happened long ago. Aha! That’s why I’m afraid to go for walks, either alone or with someone else. THAT happened when I was walking.with. her.

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  3. Let me use the opportunity to invite you to the Bloggers brunch that I am hosting over the weekend Saturday – Sunday. I believe it will be fun to mingle with others. The invitation is titled, It’s Brunch Party Time. I will send one out again tomorrow. My regards.

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